Everyone after high school tries to find themselves. They are told certain careers they should look into certain school, who to date, how to date, yet no one stops to think that not any single one of us is unique. We have our names our looks our personalities but they are all lists that have been pre-made. An emotion is a word from a list that everyone feels. Things are names that we call them by and statuses all in a name. If you have “fill in blank brand” you are “fill in blank of social status” . You like to read “oh you’re a nerd or a geek ” and over the years through words and lists those words are considered “in” or “hipster ” .
It’s actually quite entertaining when people say oh I’m special. You’re wearing clothes that 2 million other people wear you drive a car that’s made for everyone, you speak words that you didn’t even create. It’s all pretty funny.
These lists are how we build a society on. It first starts with a pink or blue blanket when you’re born and you are attached to a symbol not even a name yet. This list of even colors pertain to your life and are stuck in that column. Oh your race/ethnicity there I’d another list. Everything is a list and it’s your job to chose carefully. Be aware of the words you say, things you buy and wear, what you drive, and ect. Most importantly be aware of who you are associated with ans what that makes of you. A list is still a list but you have the choice to be apart of a better one. Things that make you are break you are 1. What you say
2.whar you think
3. Who you associate with.
Reason being is what you say are seeds and taken account of by everyone. Chose carefully from the list you know and what you think will guide you’re life. Last but not lease who you associate with is huge. If you’re with someone who is fine with where you are right now they are parasites. True “friends” aren’t ok with where you are now, they want to get you to where you need to be an accelerated path because they where your capacity can push you. People who also you should be around are up lifting and are equally yoked in thought and morals because those who don’t think the same can’t move past where they stand.
Life is a bunch of stories linked together by people and those who hold them. God is in mine and helps me through a lot along with those who he brings in. I am brought up on a list of morals and have never regretted that. A word of caution as well those who surround you thay may be blood could also be toxic to you and your life. So even though certain people may be “family” it doesn’t mean they are good for you. Just be aware of those lists and which ones you’re a part of.
Can’t wait!
Sorry everyone it’s been quite a while. I’ve been through a whirlwind of events and emotions. I took a few trips and loved every second. I will be finishing my last year for my English degree then will be taking the cbes for subbing and I am so excited to move in with someone within the next few months. I came into three new job offers so no more struggling there. I hope every one is doing well this was just a tiny update. I will be back on due to the fact I have service now. I don’t own a computer or lap top or tablet so I’m strictly to my phone at the moment. I’m not sure if I mentioned before but I always apologize for grammar or spelling errors due to lack of editing on my part. But then again this is a raw blog. Each post is in the moment of that emotion, blockaiding that moment in time of inspiration. Even though every piece of my work is so subjective and can be deconstructed but I chose each word that I want and leave out any other word it could be. That’s the beauty of language. We all know what something is by what it’s not. It really blows your mind when you take a few moments (or a semester) to realize the life of binaries. I’ve truly been humbled the last few months and in that blessed is the same. I have a love whom will always be there for me. My best friend trav that will always be by my side. Cam and Kaleigh whom always know how to cheer me up and am excited about our future events. Soon I will be coming under a new name and I cannot wait. So here is to a new path and a better, healthier, happier, and thriving lifestyle. Thank you for tuning in and not forgetting about me. I had met forgot about any of you just needed to reevaluate life choices and be more concerned and discerned with making the right ones. Remove posion, include God in every day, listen to mentors, trust in love, and enjoy every second of life. Even though you may be going through a tough time, it will be a grain of sand when you get past it and always carry the thought that it isn’t that bad. Don’t live in emotion but of knowledge. So many tid bits but I’m so ecstatic to share this new life with you all. I have to thank you as well as a way of being my healthy outlet on my way to success and I hope all of you find that state of pure joy.
It’s funny how…
It’s quite odd how life can be. Not odd in a bad way just unexpected but then again the only thing we all know about life is that events are unexpected. Just two days ago I was playing xbox and normally I have the same crew that I’ve been playing with for quite a while and one of them brought their girl friend. She was the world’s nicest person; we connected and have been really close. Yes, I know two days in but certain people give off love and a good ora/spirit so to speak. She is good people but We hit it off!
Just as a few months ago everything was falling apart now everything is building and building so quickly. I am just holding on for the ride and holding on as tight as I can.
Even though I had no luck with a restaurant that I applied two I have three options open but to have two new people in my life that are just absolutely incredible was a nice change of pace. It’s just funny how events and people come at exactly the right time.
All in all today has been amazing and that one person has brought me so much happiness. It’s just contagious. Keep in mind both of these people the girl does not live near me nor have I met her in person but just by kind words and good souls have touched my life and I’m excited to see where these friendships end up. Remember as I’ve mentioned before one cannot multiple and on the other side of a person may be a ton of blessings or despair but know that people are access gates to life. What you don’t appreciate will leave so take what you have and show appreciation any time you can even if to some people a simple
hello, I’ve been thinking about you
.
Or
Hey just wanted to tell you you’re amazing and I love who you are
.
Those simple lines may change a person’s days or week or a really long bad slope. Keep your heart open and your mind clear. Be quick to listen and slow to speak, hence why we only have one mouth and two ears. Thank you for your time.
Reading Experience
Recently I RE picked up Paradise Lost by Milton and I have to say that I was still as intilrigued as I was two years ago. I had started it in brit lit 428 but we had only got over books 1,2,3,7, and 9 and I have to say was very disappointing we didn’t go through the entire poem. Yes it’s a poem haha written in prose but it is absolutely brilliant. The history behind it is brilliant also but that’s a story in its own but I don’t want to touch on that. The first book (there are twelve books In the poem sorry for not clarifying earlier) is set after this cosmic war between angels and Satan is trying to make sense of what’s going on and the fallen angels are speaking on how to get back and each of their plans could work but Satan’s was most impacting.
The reason I enjoyed and learned so much from this poem is to step back and take each scenario into consideration from each view point. I love that this book gives Satan’s view, Eve’s view Adams and God’s. I am a faith walking individual and not saying I follow Satan but the fictitious character in this poem was ground breaking. It gave sympathy to a character whom individuals are suppose to automatically hate because of a name. This poem just ahhh there is so much to stay but what I was getting at is even Eve’s view opens people’s minds to a different side. There are many views to view a woman for example there is the Eva complex Eve complex and Madonna complex ect. But the Eva complex is this representation of sin and how she was at fault and hence why woman have pain while birthing and so on but this poem gives her side to sympathetic form. She was left out ill-informed and was swayed because information and inclusion was promised. If Adam had not done his job correctly then (hypothetically) the fall would not have happened.
There is divine order which is mentioned in the poem but also the Bible and in Christianity and catholicism, God >man(husband) >woman(wife) >kids (children) but what ended up happening was Adam received and asked questions from the angels while Eve was left alone and no communication. Adam was made to take care of the earth and his wife yet he excluded her from information.
Any person made to not be alone and is left alone they will seek attention and that’s exactly what happened she seeked attention in the wrong places. But then again the command was also given to Adam not to eat the fruit because of the divine order so due to Adams blind love he disobeyed. How is that Eve’s fault and that’s the question. When the poem was written the huge question at Melton’s time was if we were pre-destined meaning when or before an individual is born he or she is already set to go to heaven or hell. What the point was that no we are not. We were given creative will and that is why we chose our lives. Not to get into a bible study moment so I’ll stop here but if you want a challenging read pick it up an do you have questions ask I’d be more than happy to have conversations or book study with any one. Thank you for your time.
Change.
Change. One word can make or break someone. It really is a scary word or more of the fact the signifier that connects to the signified on that particular word. Change can hit a nation like a storm and bring people together or divide them. War is change, war is a great deal of change. It deconstructs individuals lives on a daily basis. The war within some one is also change. The battle field starts in one’s mind.
What I mean by this is that thoughts that are transcribed into words,language project a persons life. Speak good and continue to do good but speak destruction and that’s what follows. Change can sometimes be constructive. Constructive in that you may be taking something bad and trying to help recover or renew but then again nothing can change unless it has the will to. People have creative will and with that people chose to change or not. Making a mid course correction to better ones self or relationship may be necessary. But an individual making that change needs to do it for themself. Change in all can be scary like I mentioned before but always remember that without change there can’t be progress.
Have you wondered?
This is a funny phenomenon to me. Has any one that you’ve known or you yourself done or witnessed an argument with someone and then there was an interruption? Then that interruption paused the frustration and that individual that was hootin N hollerin turned into a civil person? This always makes me giggle. People are so tricky and they have the ability to control their emotions and actions.
As humans we try to stay people’s minds to avoid the inevitable truth. Instead of owning up to our wrongs people try to twist others words but what gives that away is its not on the person who caught them it’s the individuals conscious screaming saying
just tell them
but no it stays hidden and that individuals heart hardens and when it is brought up they are the first to jump at any ones throat. It is also the same when someone talks about someone to another individual. For example two women are talking and another person is brought up. The first lady starts talking about what she did and how she did it and what happened after. What she doesn’t know is that it doesn’t speak about that person she is taking about it speaks about her heart and how hard it is. I urge all of us even myself that during the day when something negative comes to mind just say how beautiful the day is or how that person’s talents may help people.
I sometimes have to step back and take the blackness out of my heart and just be thankful that I am here for another day and try to spread as much happiness and love that I can.
Affinitive connections
Certain things bring people together or tear them apart. We live in a world of binaries to be honest. Each sign or symbol relies on its other to be. I am who I am because of every one I’m not. It goes back to deconstruction and study of signs and symbols but the point I’m getting to will be here soon.
Talking with certain people that share interests with you is being in affinitive connections. People gather to common grounds and speak a like and do similar things because that’s how we live. Human beings are born to be social. Even in personalities people rely on their opposite. But a simple thing, commodity, emotion, or act can bring people from all walks of life together.
An item can mean so much to someone and showing that someone you take an interest in the same object strengthens the bond and allows doors to be open and pulled together. But that item can also tear people away. Now emotions are in my opinion the strongest. So many people gather over hate and dislike instead of embracing hate’s binary, love. Love can be the strongest action in the world. So I purpose that we as a nation, writers, for affinitive connection over love and passion. I so happen to have found love and the passion I have for him just exceeds what I ever thought I could feel. The only outcome is happiness.
Short of the mark
This isn’t a funny story of a man name mark or the German means of currency post was being broken down but about not avoiding a pitfall.
What I mean by that is people fall short of the mark by not completing a task and being two faced. Hey can’t complete a task and therefor don’t feel satisfied then the one task becomes their whole life.
They figure well I’ve been doing “ok” so far by just doing things half fast. Take weight loss for example (how I know you may ask well I use to be one of them) but people want to shed weight instantly or when they begin to work out and they don’t lose 20 pounds in a week. It takes time and a lifestyle change. Set goals that will encourage you and make them with a significant other or a really good friend or a parent. Don’t think of it as a diet but lifestyle change toward health happiness and smaller pants 🙂 . For those who think liposuction IA the answer I’m sorry for you because the instant gratification won’t do you any good in the long run because you won’t know what it’s like to work for satisfaction and having the completed task on your own and doing it the old fashion way is cheaper.
But one task leads to another. So set a goal today like talking your parents out to lunch more often or calling them more of she’d a few pounds before the holidays and treat everyday like it’s a start of a new year, a new you.
Thanksgiving
Some of you might say this post is nearly a week old but it’s not quite about one day. The US celebrates Thanksgiving due to the pilgrims landing here yet why are they celebrated for slaughtering other beings? Well I don’t want to get into that but I want to touch base on the day alone. Why does only one day have to be taken out to give thanks for what we have and I believe every country should celebrate a day of thanks.
Every day people should be thankful they woke up and have health and those who don’t have health I’m proud of you for battling through whatever you may have. People may blame God but they may not understand God is not of this world. He doesn’t give what he doesn’t have (sickness, poverty, death, disease) I’m not pushing religion on any of those but don’t blame someone you have no idea what he is about.
This world is slowly crumbling but to give thanks to those around you should be every day. Thank those who have picked you up when you thought no one could possibly love you, thank those who hold a door open for you or pick up your tab at a bar or restaurant, give thanks to others who do good for you and others.
Don’t let hallmark get the best of another Holiday. Also there is no need to stuff your face and blame the turkey that you’re tired or over stuffed haha. I have to go to (on average) 6 houses per holiday and am sick of food by the third one. I also don’t get why family gatherings only have to be on holidays. I have family dinner on Mondays on my mom’s side but wish more families would share their life with other family members and be thankful that they have them. So please as word of caution next year share what you’re thankful for at each meal and show thanks every day until next Thanksgiving (for those in the USA) but for all the rest of you start a day of giving thanks.
New outlook
Today I took my boss to see his new house. Well, what will be his new house and we took my car. To put in perspective he drives an hse luxe range Rover. I have a ’07 Mustang with 122,000 plus miles on it and he kind of felt that I was a humble person. He saw that even though I didn’t have everything I made due with what I had and enjoy it. On the other hand he showed me that with the right person in your life that can show you that you don’t have to work your butt off to live was a nice change. I’ve been blessed with this new adventure and am still excited to see where it goes.
Like I mentioned before I was lost and I hoped and prayed for a way and a few days later, days not weeks or years, an opertunity presented it self and I went full throttle.
But back to the new outlook don’t underestimate what people can do for you or what you can do for people. I’m using one of my gifts to cook for my boss and am changing his life. He has M.S. and the past few years looked dull for him but he can pulled a 180 and I’m so blessed to see his progress. All it takes is to have one person on your side that has a positive attitude and integrity. A quick tip those around you who don’t appreciate what you bring to the table, let them eat alone. Those who don’t celebrate you and just tolerate you should not be a part of your life. Don’t let a parasite hook on to you as a host and drain life out of you. Let today be the day where you take a new outlook and help someone or meet someone you normally wouldn’t. Not that you know whom you will And will not meet but try to meet as many people as you possibly can. You never know whose life you will touch or vice versa. I also apologize for using such a heavy “you” it’s not meant to point fingers but an encouragement.
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