Everyone after high school tries to find themselves. They are told certain careers they should look into certain school, who to date, how to date, yet no one stops to think that not any single one of us is unique. We have our names our looks our personalities but they are all lists that have been pre-made. An emotion is a word from a list that everyone feels. Things are names that we call them by and statuses all in a name. If you have “fill in blank brand” you are “fill in blank of social status” . You like to read “oh you’re a nerd or a geek ” and over the years through words and lists those words are considered “in” or “hipster ” .
It’s actually quite entertaining when people say oh I’m special. You’re wearing clothes that 2 million other people wear you drive a car that’s made for everyone, you speak words that you didn’t even create. It’s all pretty funny.
These lists are how we build a society on. It first starts with a pink or blue blanket when you’re born and you are attached to a symbol not even a name yet. This list of even colors pertain to your life and are stuck in that column. Oh your race/ethnicity there I’d another list. Everything is a list and it’s your job to chose carefully. Be aware of the words you say, things you buy and wear, what you drive, and ect. Most importantly be aware of who you are associated with ans what that makes of you. A list is still a list but you have the choice to be apart of a better one. Things that make you are break you are 1. What you say
2.whar you think
3. Who you associate with.
Reason being is what you say are seeds and taken account of by everyone. Chose carefully from the list you know and what you think will guide you’re life. Last but not lease who you associate with is huge. If you’re with someone who is fine with where you are right now they are parasites. True “friends” aren’t ok with where you are now, they want to get you to where you need to be an accelerated path because they where your capacity can push you. People who also you should be around are up lifting and are equally yoked in thought and morals because those who don’t think the same can’t move past where they stand.
Life is a bunch of stories linked together by people and those who hold them. God is in mine and helps me through a lot along with those who he brings in. I am brought up on a list of morals and have never regretted that. A word of caution as well those who surround you thay may be blood could also be toxic to you and your life. So even though certain people may be “family” it doesn’t mean they are good for you. Just be aware of those lists and which ones you’re a part of.
New start
Taking on a huge challenge but excited for the change. People I’ve walked away from are not in my future for a reason. They were posion and parasites. Any one who can not help you and push you to where you want to be or get to is because they don’t have a vison, they don’t understand yours and will never understand your decisions.
I’ve taken on a challenge and will complete it next June but will speak about that later. I’ve met the man I’m going to marry and cannot wait to go back with him to meet his parents after my birthday. All of the friends I’ve kept and actually care and aren’t backstabbing liars have made major changes in their lives and I couldn’t be more proud. I know it’s been a while since I’ve posted anything and I apologize deeply but I am here on my incline up the next small Hill to my next goal. I am excited for this next book in my life and exciting new Ventures.
It’s funny how…
It’s quite odd how life can be. Not odd in a bad way just unexpected but then again the only thing we all know about life is that events are unexpected. Just two days ago I was playing xbox and normally I have the same crew that I’ve been playing with for quite a while and one of them brought their girl friend. She was the world’s nicest person; we connected and have been really close. Yes, I know two days in but certain people give off love and a good ora/spirit so to speak. She is good people but We hit it off!
Just as a few months ago everything was falling apart now everything is building and building so quickly. I am just holding on for the ride and holding on as tight as I can.
Even though I had no luck with a restaurant that I applied two I have three options open but to have two new people in my life that are just absolutely incredible was a nice change of pace. It’s just funny how events and people come at exactly the right time.
All in all today has been amazing and that one person has brought me so much happiness. It’s just contagious. Keep in mind both of these people the girl does not live near me nor have I met her in person but just by kind words and good souls have touched my life and I’m excited to see where these friendships end up. Remember as I’ve mentioned before one cannot multiple and on the other side of a person may be a ton of blessings or despair but know that people are access gates to life. What you don’t appreciate will leave so take what you have and show appreciation any time you can even if to some people a simple
hello, I’ve been thinking about you
.
Or
Hey just wanted to tell you you’re amazing and I love who you are
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Those simple lines may change a person’s days or week or a really long bad slope. Keep your heart open and your mind clear. Be quick to listen and slow to speak, hence why we only have one mouth and two ears. Thank you for your time.
Reading Experience
Recently I RE picked up Paradise Lost by Milton and I have to say that I was still as intilrigued as I was two years ago. I had started it in brit lit 428 but we had only got over books 1,2,3,7, and 9 and I have to say was very disappointing we didn’t go through the entire poem. Yes it’s a poem haha written in prose but it is absolutely brilliant. The history behind it is brilliant also but that’s a story in its own but I don’t want to touch on that. The first book (there are twelve books In the poem sorry for not clarifying earlier) is set after this cosmic war between angels and Satan is trying to make sense of what’s going on and the fallen angels are speaking on how to get back and each of their plans could work but Satan’s was most impacting.
The reason I enjoyed and learned so much from this poem is to step back and take each scenario into consideration from each view point. I love that this book gives Satan’s view, Eve’s view Adams and God’s. I am a faith walking individual and not saying I follow Satan but the fictitious character in this poem was ground breaking. It gave sympathy to a character whom individuals are suppose to automatically hate because of a name. This poem just ahhh there is so much to stay but what I was getting at is even Eve’s view opens people’s minds to a different side. There are many views to view a woman for example there is the Eva complex Eve complex and Madonna complex ect. But the Eva complex is this representation of sin and how she was at fault and hence why woman have pain while birthing and so on but this poem gives her side to sympathetic form. She was left out ill-informed and was swayed because information and inclusion was promised. If Adam had not done his job correctly then (hypothetically) the fall would not have happened.
There is divine order which is mentioned in the poem but also the Bible and in Christianity and catholicism, God >man(husband) >woman(wife) >kids (children) but what ended up happening was Adam received and asked questions from the angels while Eve was left alone and no communication. Adam was made to take care of the earth and his wife yet he excluded her from information.
Any person made to not be alone and is left alone they will seek attention and that’s exactly what happened she seeked attention in the wrong places. But then again the command was also given to Adam not to eat the fruit because of the divine order so due to Adams blind love he disobeyed. How is that Eve’s fault and that’s the question. When the poem was written the huge question at Melton’s time was if we were pre-destined meaning when or before an individual is born he or she is already set to go to heaven or hell. What the point was that no we are not. We were given creative will and that is why we chose our lives. Not to get into a bible study moment so I’ll stop here but if you want a challenging read pick it up an do you have questions ask I’d be more than happy to have conversations or book study with any one. Thank you for your time.
Change.
Change. One word can make or break someone. It really is a scary word or more of the fact the signifier that connects to the signified on that particular word. Change can hit a nation like a storm and bring people together or divide them. War is change, war is a great deal of change. It deconstructs individuals lives on a daily basis. The war within some one is also change. The battle field starts in one’s mind.
What I mean by this is that thoughts that are transcribed into words,language project a persons life. Speak good and continue to do good but speak destruction and that’s what follows. Change can sometimes be constructive. Constructive in that you may be taking something bad and trying to help recover or renew but then again nothing can change unless it has the will to. People have creative will and with that people chose to change or not. Making a mid course correction to better ones self or relationship may be necessary. But an individual making that change needs to do it for themself. Change in all can be scary like I mentioned before but always remember that without change there can’t be progress.
Have you wondered?
This is a funny phenomenon to me. Has any one that you’ve known or you yourself done or witnessed an argument with someone and then there was an interruption? Then that interruption paused the frustration and that individual that was hootin N hollerin turned into a civil person? This always makes me giggle. People are so tricky and they have the ability to control their emotions and actions.
As humans we try to stay people’s minds to avoid the inevitable truth. Instead of owning up to our wrongs people try to twist others words but what gives that away is its not on the person who caught them it’s the individuals conscious screaming saying
just tell them
but no it stays hidden and that individuals heart hardens and when it is brought up they are the first to jump at any ones throat. It is also the same when someone talks about someone to another individual. For example two women are talking and another person is brought up. The first lady starts talking about what she did and how she did it and what happened after. What she doesn’t know is that it doesn’t speak about that person she is taking about it speaks about her heart and how hard it is. I urge all of us even myself that during the day when something negative comes to mind just say how beautiful the day is or how that person’s talents may help people.
I sometimes have to step back and take the blackness out of my heart and just be thankful that I am here for another day and try to spread as much happiness and love that I can.
Affinitive connections
Certain things bring people together or tear them apart. We live in a world of binaries to be honest. Each sign or symbol relies on its other to be. I am who I am because of every one I’m not. It goes back to deconstruction and study of signs and symbols but the point I’m getting to will be here soon.
Talking with certain people that share interests with you is being in affinitive connections. People gather to common grounds and speak a like and do similar things because that’s how we live. Human beings are born to be social. Even in personalities people rely on their opposite. But a simple thing, commodity, emotion, or act can bring people from all walks of life together.
An item can mean so much to someone and showing that someone you take an interest in the same object strengthens the bond and allows doors to be open and pulled together. But that item can also tear people away. Now emotions are in my opinion the strongest. So many people gather over hate and dislike instead of embracing hate’s binary, love. Love can be the strongest action in the world. So I purpose that we as a nation, writers, for affinitive connection over love and passion. I so happen to have found love and the passion I have for him just exceeds what I ever thought I could feel. The only outcome is happiness.
Why for pain
This may only apply to women and sorry for that men but this is just a few questions I have about us women.
I don’t understand how I have different symptoms every month. Does any one else have this problem? Each month comes at the right time yet don’t even know what I’ll have..
Back pain, cramps, bloating, yes I know this is vivid and very different from from I’ve ever talked about but I’m very bothered by this. I will have another post up later today discussing what men and women both might (hopefully) find interesting. And if any one has any comments so I know it’s not just me please enlighten me. Thank you
Instagram… Well any social media
Dear whomever is reading,
The only form of social media that I have or chose to partake in is playing xbox, writing on here, and watching certain tutorials on instagram. You may ask where I’m going with this but hold tight. I enjoy make up and hair. Due to the fact I cut 13 inches off to donate it in December so it is not as long as it use to be but on the other hand I have make up. So I’m on instagram and I’m watching a lip tutorial and a contouring tutorial and I went to comment and ask what brand she used and what color is the lip stick and the few comments above where mine Would be places was ” doe’s rinkly lips doe” and I absolutely lost it. I flipped, I know this person was ignorant and I should not have entered and ignorant and foolish despute but I had it. My response was “first of all if you don’t have anything kind to say or ask don’t respond, many others and I happen to have found this post helpful and beautiful and secondly if you’re going to try to insult someone why don’t you use proper grammar and learn how to spell” I was fuming I haven’t been this irate in a while. This person’s response was “fuq off” I just sat and started laughing so hard.
What really baffles me is that people are so rude, thoughtless, and absolutely ignorant. It made me so sick to see some other responses on other posts. I just want to send out a video to every one who posts negative stuff and it say “I understand you may be miserable but to bring people down with you is low. Find a life and how to better yourself” . Even reiterating what happened is making my heart race. I also want to apologize for spelling errors. I am on my phone and when inspiration strikes I just start typing and may not look back to see what I had written. Thank you all for reading and would love feed back of any similar occurrences.
Short of the mark
This isn’t a funny story of a man name mark or the German means of currency post was being broken down but about not avoiding a pitfall.
What I mean by that is people fall short of the mark by not completing a task and being two faced. Hey can’t complete a task and therefor don’t feel satisfied then the one task becomes their whole life.
They figure well I’ve been doing “ok” so far by just doing things half fast. Take weight loss for example (how I know you may ask well I use to be one of them) but people want to shed weight instantly or when they begin to work out and they don’t lose 20 pounds in a week. It takes time and a lifestyle change. Set goals that will encourage you and make them with a significant other or a really good friend or a parent. Don’t think of it as a diet but lifestyle change toward health happiness and smaller pants 🙂 . For those who think liposuction IA the answer I’m sorry for you because the instant gratification won’t do you any good in the long run because you won’t know what it’s like to work for satisfaction and having the completed task on your own and doing it the old fashion way is cheaper.
But one task leads to another. So set a goal today like talking your parents out to lunch more often or calling them more of she’d a few pounds before the holidays and treat everyday like it’s a start of a new year, a new you.
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